i write because the the alternative forms of my obsessive insanity are either too destructive or decidedly less sexy.
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Max Cohen has a headache that never stops. It started when he was a kid and stared at the sun. His mother told him not to. He did it anyway. By the time we meet him in Pi, the headache has become the architecture of his life: the blackout curtains,
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Six films. One question asked six different ways: what happens to the world when it forgets who’s holding it together? The answer is always the same. It falls apart. She rebuilds it. He forgets. She stays. That’s not a film theory. That’s a cosmology. Darren Aronofsky has
Please enjoy this early draft section from "Tribes of the Edge: Sex, Identity, and Obsession in the Digital Age" - 😘. RZA 🧑🍳 Introduction: Something happened to how people fuck, what they call themselves, and how far they're willing to go. Twenty years ago, sex had a short
What the Fuck, 2026? A field guide to navigating a year that doesn't make sense yet. Something broke. Not the economy. Not democracy. Not the climate. Those have been breaking for years and we've learned to doom-scroll past them. Something weirder. The scripts broke. Your parents&
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If you watched Black Sails and thought it was about treasure hunting, you missed the show entirely. This is the most sophisticated meditation on power ever filmed. Every character models a different leadership archetype. Every season demonstrates a different phase of organizational lifecycle. Every betrayal illustrates a timeless pattern in
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There's no perfect relationship structure. Only structures whose downsides you can handle. Monogamy costs you novelty and traps you if you chose wrong. Polyamory costs you simplicity and exhausts you if you don't have bandwidth. Relationship anarchy costs you legibility and terrifies you if your nervous
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The relationship escalator is basically a child-production-and-raising algorithm. Dating, exclusivity, cohabitation, marriage, kids, death. You get on at the bottom and ride to the top. The only acceptable exit is dying. Nobody tells you this is what you're signing up for. They call it "love" and
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Your attachment style is filtering your relationship options before you even see them. That polyamorous person who seems emotionally stable? Invisible to anxious attachment—too boring, no chase. That avoidant who keeps you guessing? Magnetic to anxious attachment—the uncertainty feels like home. You think you're choosing relationship
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Your metamour is your accidental in-law. No wedding invited them into your life. Your partner's affections did—and now you're connected to someone you didn't choose, might never have met, and have to navigate without any cultural script. In monogamy, this person would be
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Both sides are right. Both sides are also lying to themselves. The hierarchical poly people are right that relationships aren't equal. Someone you've built a life with has more entanglement than someone you started dating last month. Pretending otherwise is ideology over reality. The non-hierarchical poly
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Solo poly without community is just loneliness with dates. This is the structure where you're your own primary partner—no nesting, no merging lives, no shared bank accounts or cohabitation. You have multiple loving relationships, but you remain the center of your own life. It works beautifully for
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Parallel poly is easier for the arms and harder for the hinge. The people on the sides of the V have simple structures—one relationship to maintain. The person at the vertex is running multiple relationships worth of logistics alone, managing separate calendars, processing with each partner individually, deciding what